God will always pull through. Just hold on and know that God will make you stronger =) God…..I seriously thank you for everything you have shown and given. You truly are faithful and helped me grow stronger through everything.
Lord, i’m so restless. You and I both know that something’s not right when i’m restless. What is it? i’m so lost. i’m so confused. but whatever it is, I love you. i need to trust you. i need to have faith in You. Lord, i need you.
this is my prayer to you
I may be weak but Your Spirit’s strong in me My flesh may fail but My God You never will.
I need you to soften my heart To break me apart I need you to pierce through the dark And cleanse every part of me
I’m broken inside, I give you my life.
Give me faith…
Lord, all I am I surrender.
I may be weak but Your Spirit’s strong in me My flesh may fail but My God You never will.
Let the pain, in my life Find it’s healing, in Your eyes Every hurt, every loss Pull me closer, to Your heart Let the wind and the waves Bring a new courage and a faith I’m singing out, singing out…
The Lord is my Shepherd and I want for nothing You lead me to water for You know I’m thirsting And I, am only satisfied, by You (You are water for my soul)
Every day, I make a choice To be led, only by your voice To be bold and unafraid Knowing I am covered, I am safe For even now, in my need You are proving yet again to me, You are there, You are there, Always there
Switzerland… was like one of the greatest blessings in my life. The family I worked with, the beautiful country and E.Ving there, and of course God’s presence being so alive and faithful to all of us. One of the biggest things God showed and told me was to hold on to the truth that He revealed to me and to never let that go from here on out. No matter what, I’m going to continue to pray that God helps me to hold on to the truths and not be deceived any longer; and to be left hungry for more of Him.
AHh Switzerland missions=) God is crazy and amazing with how He sets up things to bring us and others closer to Him.
ugh letting go…of my fears, my plans, my pride, my future, the people i care about…;giving up all control and letting God take over…idk wats so hard about trusting God so much. But more and more lately God is helping me to trust in Him and let go. Switzerland missions showed me so much… and I know that everything is better in His hands…which is why i have to let go. this song is soo meaningful
Nothing compares to Life I have in You Nothing of this world satisfies So, I want to let go I want to let You know All that I have to give is Yours
Here I am As gold to the fire I will surrender to Your hand To this place Lord, I have come ready for Your touch
It’s all for You It’s all for You I’m letting go I’m letting go
What is it in me That hangs on for so long Why do I fight the tears that come? I work so hard to Keep in control when All that I want is to let go
I’ll take this life And lay it down I’m letting go I’m letting go My hopes and dreams Here at Your feet I’m letting go I’m letting go
I know by you I am justified But still I can’t seem to find the line Where my works will match my faith And I lay myself aside And my actions fail to show But in spite of me you seem to know That I only want to love you I can’t make it on my own When my mind denies the love I know My life sends nails through your bone
Show me love, show me life, give me time Because I want to shine in spite of who I am Show me love, give me time Because I want to shine in spite of who I am
thank you guys. seriously, thank you. All the prayers, all the supports, it all counted and made a significant difference. THank you God ultimately. You really alone are our provider. Somehow…someway, we are all able to go on missions. We somehow are able to go despite the fact that we had to raise 68000 as a team in less than a month. You did it God. you proved me and all other doubters wrong. You proved and showed to me that you are in control, and that 68000 is really nothing to you. One of the most toughest, humbling periods of my life, but also one of the most greatest blessings i witnessed and experienced. dang. Thank you for my AWESOME team; for my BEAUTIFUL friends and for all the random supporters and support that I did not expect from; for Your great provisions; for Your ingenious way of humbling us and getting us closer to each other and to You; for being on our side and never leaving us; for Your love and grace that overcomes our mistakes, flaws, and iniquities; for your forgiveness and for choosing us sinners, to go out and serve a loving/faithful God like You. Thank you God.
When opportunities present themselves-opportunities to serve, to reach out, to heal, to restore, to love, to forgive-you better take them. Because I believe it’s God wanting to use you for His glory….it’s just a matter if you are willing to respond.
It starts with love. For so long I prayed and thought about the things I needed. One of the biggest thing that was on my heart and mind was rules, and being confused by them. Whenever I was confused about something (regarding actions and things that are right/wrong) I would pray for all sorts of things. Mostly I would pray for much more wisdom and discernment, desiring so much to be able to differentiate what was right and wrong in order that I avoid doing wrong things. I would pray to be wise in that I may know the difference and not get confused and caught up on wrong things that I figured God would not be pleased with. I look back and realize that I desired discernment/wisdom to do what’s right for the sake of getting into heaven, not because I love Jesus. I realized I want to go to heaven cause its heaven, not because Jesus is there and He is the ultimate love of my life. Other things like humility, selflessness, and trusting God (that was a big one), patience, reaching out, and giving joyfully were things I lacked in. I would pray for all of those constantly; to trust in God, to be more humble, etc. But lately, God has been speaking to my heart and life, and I realized that I need to pray for love more than anything else. Its definitely important to pray for wisdom and discernment, for trust and humility, etc; you definitely should pray for those. And I will continue to. But now I know God has been speaking to me and He really knows what I need the most. I need to love God more. I need to fall so much more in love with God, and with that love, everything else will be provided; more trust in Him, selflessness, compassion, patience, humility, and everything else. With that love, God will be able to use me to stand out in the world, to be that salt and light. I need to love God so much more and stop over thinking and worrying about whats right or wrong; because with more love in God, I know God will search my heart and lead me to do things that are pleasing to His eyes. With more love in Him, I will have a desire to go out and work for his kingdom joyfully, and to reach out and have a heart for others. This is what God has been showing me. This laundry list of supposedly correct/incorrect rules are messing with my head too much. Forget it. I just need to fall more in love with God and He will provide and lead the rest of way. The most important Commandment is to Love the Lord your God with everything. Then the second most important one is to love your neighbor as you love yourself. I understand more now why that is. Love is everything and the most important thing. But it’s honestly SO hard to love God more and more. Too many distractions and whatnot going on in this world. Im so prideful and selfish and weak. The truth is, I and others need help to fall more in love with God. And thankfully, God understands that, and I believe He allows us to go to Him and ask him for help; to ask Him to help us to fall more and more in love with Him. I need so much help with that. So God, my prayer for now is that I (and everyone else) may fall more and more in love with who You are. I pray for love, like Yours for me. Thank you for always having good intentions for us and for Your love that you have freely given us. In You there is freedom, peace, joy, and love.
Corrie Ten Boom was a Dutch Christian who, along with her father and other family members, helped many Jews escape the Nazi Holocaust in WWII. She and her family would go through a tremendous amount of suffering where eventually, Corrie would be the…
Flaws. here’s the thing. Lately I’ve been feeling, experiencing, and seeing people and myself judging others by their flaws. Whether it be people in leadership positions, or your fellow classmate. I think when we see and witness someone’s flaw and really dislike it, we end up disliking the person him/herself and judge that person based on his/her flaw. Like a Pastor who leads a church; when we see him make a mistake in something or a thing he said or just anything, we let that flaw become our image of him/her. Or a leader in a different position that does things that we see is wrong, we end up not liking the organization/club/program/or w.e because of that person leading it. And yes, its possible that the leader him/herself is completely wrong and that he/she needs to change or get kicked out. But before any of that, I see a lot of us immediately letting our judgmental side take over and become consumed by the thought of their flaws and mistakes. Hence, we really dislike the person, choose not to affiliate ourselves with him/her, or even acknowledge the person as human (ignoring him/her and what not). That might be a problem. One thing I know is that Jesus looked beyond ALL of our flaws, and still chose to save us. In fact, He shined through our flaws and used it for better. He didn’t let us drown in our own mistakes and sins, but picked us up and took care of us. He still chooses to use us for a greater good. Everyone has their own flaws; some people might be very sinful and weak in one area while the other is sinful/ weak in the other. Just because that person is making mistakes and sinning in areas that we aren’t accustomed to or like, i don’t think we should let that mistake take over our image of that person in any way. We shouldn’t let the flaws hinder our ability to reach out, talk, affiliate, bond, trust, etc. that person. Who are we to think that we are better or can lead better. We cant even fully see our flaws and shortcomings. Humble our hearts God. As the song goes (and even if its not in the same context), Give me your eyes and heart to see in a more loving/forgiving way and reach out; and to not let our image of him/her be consumed by their flaws and whatnot. We all need hearts and eyes like You God, cause we are all too blind, ignorant, and prideful in every way.
and I realize that the more I look at myself and the more I look at the things that i dislike and hate…. I am all of those things. I’m basically everything that I hate. shoot. I hate gossip and people who gossip, but i find myself gossiping sometimes; i hate selfish people who just really care about themselves, but i easily see that im sooo selfish and ignorant of how other people feel and think when i do/say certain things; i hate people who try to take easy way out of things (i dont even need to explain how many times i try to do this…); i hate people who get/ and are jealous ( and i get pretty jealous easily i realized); i dislike laziness and how lazy people put no effort into things (no words needed to show how lazy i am…); i dislike that people seem to hold grudges against each other and dont try to reconcile(when i myself have relational problems with people close to me…); i really dont like arrogance and extreme pride (but yeah… im pretty conceited in my head and definitely prideful). it goes on. and the fact that i wanted to complain and yell at people for such things…. im sometimes so blind and ignorant of how hypocritical and conceited i am. I need to be humbled once again. this prideful and arrogant view i have on myself is getting to my head and hindering my relationship with God and others. Going back to square one in hopes of realizing more and more, that i am nothing without Him, and that I can only boast in You alone.
yep so tonight was a great night. One of the best dinners i had…legit. I felt God’s joy and love and presence as Josh Kim, Alan Kwon, and I were talking about a variety of things. I learned and am convicted to do more things. Josh, I see the heart you have for God and for serving. This really does encourage me to serve more and to reach out to younger brothers and help them out as you are helping us out. So ill try to work harder on that. And i remember you saying how you just want to be joyful and happy in serving in church; to not worry about burdens and jobs and roles in church. You definitely moved me there. I too, want to serve more and just be joyful in serving. Ill definitely talk to you more about things when i need/want to.
haha Alan, lets continue to stick together man. I havent opened up much but I hope we can really get closer and encourage one another as our spiritual journey continues. lets be great servants and always remember the verse (John 3:30) “He must increase, but I must decrease.” Lets go out and be history makers. And then we can look back, when we get older, and smile about all the accomplishments we did for God. This goes for all brothers and sisters out there=). lets be great servants of God.
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us” (2 Corinthians 4:7NIV).
The speaker came out onto the stage. He pulled out a one-hundred dollar bill.
“Who would like this one-hundred dollar bill?” he asked.
Hands shot up all around the room.
Then he crumpled the paper, threw it on the floor and ground the dirt into it with his foot. Holding up the dirty, crumpled and tattered money, he then asked, “Now, who wants this one-hundred dollar bill?”
The same hands went into the air.
“And that is why God still wants you,” he continued. “You may be battered and bruised. You may be tattered and torn. You may be crumpled and creased. But that does not change your value to God any more than what I have done changes the value of this one-hundred dollar bill. You are still precious and valuable to the God who chose you, redeemed you, and loves you as His own.”
“He knows how we are formed; he remembers that we are dust” (Psalm 103:14). God understands that we are fatally flawed creatures, yet deems us immeasurably valuable no matter how crumpled and soiled we are.
Paul wrote to the Corinthians, “But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us” (2 Corinthians 4:7). In Paul’s day, it was customary to store treasure in clay jars. The common container disguised its contents and didn’t draw attention to the treasure within. You and I might not look like much on the outside. We may appear as common as jars of clay, but inside are hidden incredible treasures. Inside these old cracked pots reside the most incredible treasure of all…Jesus Christ. And that makes us valuable.
Our culture places an ungodly amount of significance on a woman’s appearance. Outward trappings of appearance are simply that…trappings. But God sees us as simple jars of clay containing valuable treasure…and that makes us beautiful to Him.
I learned that God is irrational. He’s irrational because even though He knows EVERYTHING about us, He still chooses to love us. Grace is a part of irrationality then, and so we live our lives irrationally as well; to forgive; to love; to bless those people who hurt us the most; to do the craziest, and most impossible thing for what God called us to do. Its hard, cause humans in general always have to think rationally, be logical about everything; and if something goes against that rationality, then we refuse to accept and embrace it. That’s we don’t rely on ourselves or other people, but on God.
before i was thinking about how there are a lot of things i want in my life…whether it be physical things, the attention and approval of people, or w/e crap “normal” people want in this world. And it sucks… cause i dont seem to get the things i want; and things dont seem to turn out the way i want them to. But i guess thats been keeping me a bit more humble and reliant on God… I mean, i still struggle in that aspect of my spiritual life; i’m pretty selfish inside and arrogant and i dont relle trust and depend on God much. Well…as scared as i am to say this….i kinda need God to humble and break me down more…. shoot i said it…yes God..i need you to humble me more…cause im so blind in my worldly actions and desires. But i hope u give me just enough strength to get by and come out on top for You. God, u will give me what i need right? not what i want =(..but thats okay. i conclude in the end that what i need is to be humbled and to have Your grace pour down on me like rain.